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I began to write this memoir when I was 60 and completed it 6 years later. Always difficult, often excruciating, it was worth every minute. Have you ever heard the statement, " An unexamined life is...
View ArticlePost Traumatic Living At Its Best
I’m not in charge of the thoughts paddling around in my head, but I felt heavy as I awakened this morning – weighty with a sinking, toxic dread. There was a splash of hatred towards my ex-husband at...
View ArticleUntethered - Imagination Sets Us Free!
Untethered – Imagination Sets us Free!Surfacing from my first proud plunge off the high diving board at the Fergus District Swimming Pool, a heavy youngster leapt in on top of me, forcing me down...
View ArticleThere's No Other You!
There's No Other You!In his book, Hauntings, Jungian scholar James Hollis writes about the most valuable of life savers that each of us owns – a personal endowment NOT subject to tradition, cultural...
View ArticleReview by American Playwright Carolyn Gage
A History of a Pedophile's Wife: A Highly Personal Reaction by Carolyn Gage“How could a mother NOT know that her child was being sexually abused in the home?” I’ve asked that. But it was never a real...
View ArticleReview of my memoir on 'Not the Life We Chose' by Author Janet Mackie
Wednesday, November 9, 2016Honoring one Mother's courage to speak out: Comparing our stories with theirs, and discovering pathways to protect the next generation of children that we love A History of a...
View ArticleUC Observer Magazine - Carolyn Pogue - about my memoir
SIGHTINGS by Carolyn Pogue Dear Mother of Judas,I know you walk among us, still. You, the mother of the turncoat, criminal, suicide. Your son's name is used as a metaphor for "wicked." How did it turn...
View ArticleA Cactus, A Pen, and Dolloped Offerings (Encouragement for Writers!)
Last Sunday, a lovely spring walk through Prince’s Island Park led me to the John Dutton Theatre at the fabulous Calgary Public Library. Time to hear Wordfest’s Zsuzsi Gartner interview American author...
View ArticleReview by www.lovefraud.com
Book Review: A History of a Pedophile’s Wife — Memoir of a Canadian Teacher and Writer, by Eleanor CowanReview by Donna Andersen of www.lovefraud.com (May15/17)People born to disordered parents are...
View ArticleMoon to Earth - Recognizing my Experience was actually abuse
Published by www.lovefraud.com , June 28, 2017From Moon to Earth - recognizing that my experience was really abuse “Your son lives on the moon! “Teddy’s Grade 2 teacher complained, her grim face and...
View ArticleReview of A History of a Pedophile's Wife by Playwright Carolyn Gage
“How could a mother NOT know that her child was being sexually abused in the home?” I’ve asked that. But it was never a real question. I was always sure I knew the answer: “She couldn’t.” In other...
View ArticleHow, as a child, I became a people pleaser - Published by Lovefraud.com, July...
“Shut your big mouth and buzz off!” my mother exploded at me as she slammed a boiling hot cloth against my brother’s face – her cure for his chronic swollen acne.“Do you know how much money your pimple...
View ArticleNever Good Enough (My childhood adaptation to abuse)
Published by Lovefraud.com - July 26 , 2017I was eleven years old. “Do you know what you are? asked Mother, thrusting open my bedroom door to find me, as she knew she would, in a predictable spot...
View ArticleQuelling is Not Coping - how my siblings and I dealt with our sociopathic mother
Published by Lovefraud.com August 9, 2017In our family of ten, our main objective was not to recognize gross abnormalities, but to quell them. When a storm erupted, we’d leap into action. Unpredictable...
View ArticleMy First Unsuspecting Year in My Marriage to an Exploiter
My First Unsuspecting Year in My Marriage to an Exploiter With a sparkling wedding ring on my finger, I’d claimed a much-desired new identity – no longer the binge-drinking daughter of an alcoholic...
View ArticleWhen Sociopaths Use Righteous Indignation to Exert Control
My husband liked to discuss discipline. The importance of it. The intrinsic value of restraining one’s impulses especially when such personal control would benefit the greater good of mankind.My two...
View ArticleMy Drug Rape
By Eleanor Cowan October 11, 2010Unearthing my repressed memory of being drugged and rapedA young woman from my building banged on my door at 3 a.m. “It’s me! Darlene!” Soon on the couch and sipping...
View ArticleRecovery from the sociopath — learning to count what really matters
“Was it the sex?” a new member asked me at our weekly meeting of Parents of Sexually Abused Children.“Is that why you stayed with your user for 14 years?”Three faces swung to me, including the lead...
View ArticleGrooming: How religious and cultural ideas of my childhood conditioned me to...
When I said that “god was my first abuser,” at our regular meeting of Parents of Sexually Abused Children, no one sucked in their breath or exhibited shock. A tough group, no one even blinked an...
View ArticleOvercoming the residual fear from sociopathic abuse — two steps forward, one...
One bitterly cold winter’s morning at the Vendome metro in Montreal, I hopped a bus that would take me to a lecture on “Attentiveness and Developing Awareness” — and got a complete lesson well before I...
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